Solzão

13 October 2014

The first thing that must be said: All of a sudden Summer decided to show up and  I was woefully unprepared. Oh my gosh. No they do not have a.c here. And yes, we spent many days this week walking an hour or more in between appointments feeling like we were melting. I was thinking yesterday how cool it is that in my mission I got/get to experience super extreme cold and heat and walk through all of it. . . . . hahah ha. but really it's kind of good because it will help me know later on in my life that I'm not really dying of heat. . . or cold. Ever. And I can tell me kids to suck it up becuase, " In my mission we had to. . . . . 

Ok, second thing, I wrote all of you individual e-mails!! Wahoo! You're the best Sister V! Yeah, I know, but that means that I literally have 2 minutes to write this e-mail. . . . 

So. Since Wednesday was my 1/2 way mark I spent a big part of this week having a mid-misiong crisis and wondering if I've used my time the best I could etc. etc. and how/what I need to improve to do way better for this last 1/2. To really do what Heavenly Father has for me to do. I was worrying, worrying worrying. Friday we had a conference with President and he spoke about our call letters. How really they are like scripture, how every word and promis is very significant and that we should read them weekly. He showed us how our call letter has a promise. That we will have more joy than we've ever experienced as we work with ALL of our might mind and strength to find those that ARE ready to recieve this Gospel and these ordinances. I realized that I need to work so much harder to consecrate myself.I need to sacrifice more of my mind, time and energy into being a missionary. But howww???

Well I'm still working on that and praying every day but yesterday I had a really lovely experience that was a little bit of an answer. Yesterday we had fast and testimony meeting, and it was one of the most spiritual sacrament meetings that I remember. We started out by singing " I stand all Amazed," and I was just hit with the love that the Savior has for me; of the reality of what He did for me; that He really is grateful for my desire and He will continue to help me. So many times when I feel the Spirit it's when singing:) I thought that I would like to bear my testimony about what I was feeling but decided not to because I thought it would be impossilbe. In this ward everyone goes up to the front that wants to bear their testimonies and there are always so many people! But then, when there were just like 7 minutes left, miraculously there wasn't anyone waiting! I felt like I should very strongly, so I basically ran up there before anyone else could. Again when I was talking I felt the Spirit so very strongly. I don't bear my testimony very often ( ok, like besides every day being a missionary, but before the mish!) And I hardly every cry in front of people, seriously, like never. But I felt the Spirit so strongly and I'm really glad I went up there.  Afterwards when I returned to the congregation I just KNEW. I just felt so peaceful. I absolutely know that this Gospel is true and we HAVE to live it and help others live it in order to live with Heavenly Father again. I remember when Elder Bednar came to the MTC and told us about how many missionaries come home and eventually go inactive because they weren't absolutely converted during their missions. He said that we have to become converetd during this time, we have to build a foundation to last for the rest of our lives. I remember thinking I didn't know if that was possilbe. Well, now I know:) 

I want you all to know that I KNOW that this is the Gosple of Jesus Christ and that He loves every single one of us personally and infinitely. Being a missionary is groovy:)

Loves! 

Sister Vent