I just don't even know what to put right here

Mom. My p-day will probably be NEXT Monday:) Don't worry, I'm not too lost in the work yet! ;) Also, guess what I found out? I'm travelling all by myself!! I thought I was going with these other visa waiting elder that I knew but noooo. Apparently on their itineraries but not on mine there's a little ditty about sorry, we didn't have enough room for Sister Ventura, so she's travelling alone! What? Hahha of course, this would happen to me! I'm actually super excited though/super nervous. Any tips for me?

I'm so excited out of my mind that I don't really feel motivated to tell about my week but I will:) Lucky ducks. Dad, I ran into the Wilson girl and we hugged and cried (probably not) and everything, I wanted to take a pic to send but didn't have my camera with me! And the Sibling of the month award goes tooo. . . .Kali bear! Kali, thank you so much for the nice hand written note! I'm going to do my best to write back today ok boobear?! Tayler, don't feel bad, you'r a REALLY close second place. like reealy close. I love you guys (brothers included!)

Tuesday during the choir number was fantastic.  I've decided, that singing is one of the purest forms of worship (not my words--I guess I agree). In Portuguese the verb for to worship is adorar, I really like that :) Anyway, I love being here and I wish I could tell you about all of the times just this week that I've been able to have the Spirit bear direct witness to me that I am loved and that I am doing the right thing. It's a fantastic feeling. But I know it's because I'm being more obedient and striving to do what's right more than I ever have in my life. I can't even tell you where I read about this but through some scripture study and remembering and just putting things together I've learned this: Heavenly Father really wants to bless us with happiness and blessings and answers and help and He can just as much as we are obedient and put forth effort! He actually cannot bless us/give us answers if we don't do our part. It's one giant covenant.  I don't know if this makes sense but it's true!! This kind of leads into the other things I've really been thinking about this week. I feel like I've seen through a window. A window of how my life can be, not just on the mission. Just in these 6 weeks, I've learned so much about my Heavenly Father and my Savior and about myself and how to live with them in every aspect of life and I do not want that to change! Of course It's so much easier on a mission and particularly at the MTC. But I want this experience to change me (not ME but like I've just been explaining, I want to be able to really LIVE with the Savior in my life always, to continue to love the scriptures and learn new things about the Gospel etc etc). Unlike Europe I don't want to have had this giant experience and then go on my merry way basically unchanged.  Hope this makes sense.  I just feel like I've seen what life is REALLY about here. Everything else we do is (or is supposed to be) for one purpose, to return to live with Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ forever. I hope this doesn't sound like another person or some unknown "missionary" because it's not, It's me and all of these things I keep discovering that I really already knew are making me happy so I know they're right! 

Wedneday was a super busy fun day: We got to host again which was a blast. We also go asked to demonstrate for the new missionaries Wednesday night, they do this how to begin teaching workshop. It was trippy to be on the flip side! These 6 weeks have gone by so fast! I was so nervous and Sis B was probably so annoyed because I kept saying I was going to throw up, it was bad haha. It was a great experience. One of the guys from the district was our instructor and we're tight now. It's a huge deal. He's like a celebrity to. . . missionaries. The elders here are so annoying about it! Then I got (had to, what?) to help to orientation for our 8 new elders. Yee hah.  

Friday we had in-field orientation all day. It was  A LOT of info, but really useful and got my excited for the field! It was also the probably the best v-day ever hahah. Thanks so much for the packages mom! basically our whole floor had a party with all of that goodness! Boo bear I did get one other Valentine. .. . an elder gave me a hear with a virtuous woman scripture. .. no further comments.  Also mom those bags of kisses? I went to give them to a district down the hall and I went over in my head like 20 times how i would NOT say. . . . want my kisses? Yeah well. " Do you want some kisses?" Aaaaah.  "I mean these chocolate kisses that I have from my. . .Mom!!" Gah!! Of course I said it. One of the Elders: "Wow you're eyes just like bugged out of your head, yeah we thought you meant the other kind." Whatever, it was the worst/best/ that is my life! O que e minha vida?       

Love you all, talk to you soon!! e-mail me or preferably dear.elder me (I'll check my e-mail like one more time tomorrow just to check) about the for sure time/confirmation etc so I know you're good ok? K, vamos para frente com fe!

Sister Ventura       

ALSO, THIS IS OOBER IMPORTANT: I bought my pone card yesterday. This is how it works. It has 500 minutes on it but automatically uses 130 minutes every time I use it. So even if  you guys don't answer it will still use up 130 minutes.  Based on my itinerary around what time do you think I'll be able to call? Mom, I'll admit, I didn't realize when I found out I'd be able to call that it will be your Birthday! Huzzah!! Perfect!  I am so stoked out of my mind to talk to you people!!